Eternal Reflections of Hikikomori

all right

2011-02-14T22:42:00.003+02:00

this is not about glowing girls

this is not about krispy dreams

this is not about teenage journals

or dirty films

i don't know if you know but i'm with you everyday

i mean i guess.

i still like soccer, i still like guns.

does it count?

still can't chew minty gums

or how about my miserable aunt?

you know everything is same

when i'm with you i go lazy anyway

you know poetry is lame

i sin even when i pray

a glass of water please

oh, cook me something kitsch or may be glitch?

you know i am just a son of a beach

who wanna shot a movie about a single kiss

all right

after sun cream is bliss

elvis fan

2008-02-14T18:04:00.000+02:00

with your hair the james dean
you were the most popular teen
died in a horrible motorcycle accident
and came back
on hallowe'en

10 Posts, last published on Nov 14, 5555

2007-06-28T23:59:00.000+03:00

We will live forever
TOGETHER

Your face is full
MOON

I'll be a lunatic werewolf
SOON

Waiting for the last call
From the
SUN

To be your
SON

And
FUCK

You 2
i am.
HUMAN

.after all

I Am Your Luck Buddy

2006-11-14T13:59:00.000+02:00

It’s just a coincidence

My lady

You should wear your old shoes

And dance with me

At the backyard of our

Coconut House

You are an elephant 6 7 8

And I am a mouse

Mr. Nice Guy the dream mate

So hold my hands

So kiss my balls

Let’s go to Mexico

So Sorry

So let me sleep on your fear

Answer your calls

Let’s go to Tokyo

Buy you stupid dolls

Worse than me

Cause I am the best

Best Boy Electric

Best Film Ever

Best but not better

So hold my heart

So kiss my eyes

Let’s go to Mexico

This is the night that we share air

We will go to bed

Sleep without touching each other

Our time is always summer

So hold your holy water

It’s just a coincidence

My lucky lady

You should wear the brand new dress

And sleep with your

Luck Buddy

LOVE 201

2006-11-05T16:54:00.000+02:00

our coincidence
our numbers
our forest
our house
our hours
our game
our songs
our watches
our dream
our hopes
our memories
our smell
our love
our kiss
our place
our church
our streets

us.

i hate to love to hate

2006-10-11T17:11:00.000+03:00

i suffer from bipolar disorder and misanthropy and i hate it. i hate my sickness but i hate boring ordinary people, too. i hate that stupid fucks. i hate all that silly career guys. i hate youth. i hate their mothers and fathers. i hate their traditions and culture. i hate every tiny race. i hate turks. i hate germans. i hate jews. i hate hitler. hell yes, i hate west. i hate islam. i hate pope. i hate north. i hate winter. i like summer. i hate my brother, and the rest of my fucking family. i hate my girlfriend. i hate our relationship. i hate msn. i hate blogs. i hate keyboards. i hate future. i hate everything...

i hate this world. and beyond that. this universe. i hate life when i am in it. reason? i have no other choice. and i hate it. now, i am ok. i am doing fine. i can like you, love you. i feel relieved a little bit. i think i love to hate yet i hate it. and this is just my bygone and your now. did you get it? oh yes.

orage

2006-09-03T01:08:00.001+03:00

this is too much for me
i can't go on
what can i tell you
my sister
my lover
my mother
i guess i miss you
should i forgive you
if you ever kiss me again
i will stop
and be your enemy
for the life that you hold
i just want to be free
and freeze in the cold

AnorgasmiA

2006-08-10T13:33:00.000+03:00

delayed

e j a c u l a t i o n

covers my hands
i am lost in you
mother?

scream thy last scream!
hold my balls
spread the hand cream
all over me
jump like a liger
jump! baby

characterised by the man's inability to ejaculate in a reasonable period under normal sexual stimulation.

Anorgasmia is far more common in females than in males and is especially rare in younger men.

A common cause of anorgasmia, in both men and women, is the use of anti-depressants which i do not use. Other cause is m e n t a l i l l n e s s which i feed some.

do you love me?
love me

i can't come
on your back
my warm cum
hesitates
time more need i
i am not gay
just romantic, that's all
to become the last days of pompeii
wait.
do not answer your mother's call

murder can be fun

2006-08-01T03:17:00.000+03:00

my personal
TOP 10
of
ALL TIME

Henry Lee Lucas (1936-2001)

Many sources report that Lucas confessed to involvement in about 350 murders. He is not famous like Ed Gein or Jack the Ripper. But he is just better, in other words he is the best of all time.

Pedro López (?-Still Alive!)

Shrek of South America, accused of the murder of over 300 victims. aka Monster of the Andes.
López later said "“I like the girls in Ecuador, they are more gentle and trusting, more innocent." López was arrested when an attempted abuduction went wrong and he was trapped by market traders. He confessed to over three hundred murders, part of the confession was tricked out of him by a priest disguised as a convict. The police only believed him when a flash flood uncovered a mass grave of many of his victims. "He was arrested in 1980 but was freed by the government in Ecuador at the end of last year [1998] and deported to Colombia. In an interview from his prison cell, he described himself as "the man of the century" and said he was being released for "good behaviour".

Andrei Chikatilo (Андре́й Рома́нович Чикати́ло) (1936-1994)

From Mother Russia, nicknamed the Rostov Ripper. His lucky number is 52. He is dead, he will never visit you.

John Wayne Gacy (1942-1994)

He became notorious as the "Killer Clown" because of the many block parties he attended, entertaining children in a clown suit and makeup. He kissed 33 boys and young men. Big time Homoserial.

Ted Bundy (1946-1989)

He is usually described as an educated, handsome and charming young man despite the brutality of his crimes. Typically, he murdered young women and girls. He is also believed to have raped many of his victims. His last words were, "I'd like you to give my love to my family and friends."

Albert Fish (1870-1936)

Over the course of his criminal career, he murdered more than 23 children. He is the most scary guy/human/thing I ever know. An anonymous letter was sent to the girl's parents which led the police to Albert Fish. The letter is reprinted here, with all of Fish's misspellings and grammatical errors:

Dear Mrs. Budd. In 1894 a friend of mine shipped as a deck hand on the Steamer Tacoma, Capt. John Davis. They sailed from San Francisco for Hong Kong, China. On arriving there he and two others went ashore and got drunk. When they returned the boat was gone. At that time there was famine in China. Meat of any kind was from $1-3 per pound. So great was the suffering among the very poor that all children under 12 were sold for food in order to keep others from starving. A boy or girl under 14 was not safe in the street. You could go in any shop and ask for steak—chops—or stew meat. Part of the naked body of a boy or girl would be brought out and just what you wanted cut from it. A boy or girl's behind which is the sweetest part of the body and sold as veal cutlet brought the highest price. John stayed there so long he acquired a taste for human flesh. On his return to N.Y. he stole two boys, one 7 and one 11. Took them to his home stripped them naked tied them in a closet. Then burned everything they had on. Several times every day and night he spanked them—tortured them—to make their meat good and tender. First he killed the 11 year old boy, because he had the fattest ass and of course the most meat on it. Every part of his body was cooked and eaten except the head—bones and guts. He was roasted in the oven (all of his ass), boiled, broiled, fried and stewed. The little boy was next, went the same way. At that time, I was living at 409 E 100 St. near—right side. He told me so often how good human flesh was I made up my mind to taste it. On Sunday June the 3, 1928 I called on you at 406 W 15 St. Brought you pot cheese—strawberries. We had lunch. Grace sat in my lap and kissed me. I made up my mind to eat her. On the pretense of taking her to a party. You said yes she could go. I took her to an empty house in Westchester I had already picked out. When we got there, I told her to remain outside. She picked wildflowers. I went upstairs and stripped all my clothes off. I knew if I did not I would get her blood on them. When all was ready I went to the window and called her. Then I hid in a closet until she was in the room. When she saw me all naked she began to cry and tried to run down the stairs. I grabbed her and she said she would tell her mamma. First I stripped her naked. How she did kick—bite and scratch. I choked her to death, then cut her in small pieces so I could take my meat to my rooms. Cook and eat it. How sweet and tender her little ass was roasted in the oven. It took me 9 days to eat her entire body. I did not fuck her tho I could of had I wished. She died a virgin.

Jeffrey Dahmer (1960-1994)

17 men & boys

	19	June, 1978
	24	September 15, 1987
	14	October, 1987
	23	March, 1988
	26	February, 1989
	33	May, 1990
	27	June, 1990
	22	September, 1990
	23	September, 1990
	19	February, 1991
	19	April, 1991
	31	May 24, 1991
	14	May 27, 1991
	20	June 30, 1991
	23	July 5, 1991
	23	July 12, 1991
	25	July 19, 1991

Richard Ramírez (1960-)

He was found guilty of 13 counts of murder, 5 attempted murders, 11 sexual assaults and 14 burglaries. Also AC/DC fan.

David Berkowitz (1953-)

Son of Sam killed only 6 people with he is beautiful gun, Charter Arms Bulldog. NYC cops were too late...

Zodiac Killer (?)

One of my favourite. He was never been arrested. We only know his/her cute logo, unsolved cryptograms and 5 victims' names.

Seven Bridges of Königsberg

2006-07-22T02:26:00.000+03:00

what is möbius strip?
One way to represent the Möbius strip as a subset of R³ is using the parametrization:

where

and

This creates a Möbius strip of width 1 whose center circle has radius 1, lies in the x-y plane and is centered at (0,0,0). The parameter u runs around the strip while v moves from one edge to the other.

In cylindrical polar coordinates (r,θ,z), an unbounded version of the Möbius strip can be represented by the equation:

Topologically, the Möbius strip can be defined as the square [0,1] × [0,1] with its top and bottom sides identified by the relation (x,0) ~ (1-x,1) for 0 ≤ x ≤ 1, as in the diagram on the right.

The Möbius strip is a two-dimensional compact manifold (i.e. a surface) with boundary. It is a standard example of a surface which is not orientable. The Möbius strip is also a standard example used to illustrate the mathematical concept of a fiber bundle. Specifically, it is a nontrivial bundle over the circle S¹ with a fiber the unit interval, I = [0,1]. Looking only at the edge of the Möbius strip gives a nontrivial two point (or Z₂) bundle over S¹.

i didn't understand tell it again!

Cardcaptor Sakura (カードキャプターさくら Kādo Kyaputā Sakura) is a manga series with a TV series based on the manga consists of 70 half-hour episodes (spread over three seasons), two theatrically released movies, and several specials. Characters use cards, and the loop character is very important. Loop is capable of warping reality--bending the time-space continuum (so to speak) into a continuous, repeating loop. Anything or anyone unfortunate enough to be trapped inside it will be left stranded in an environment that repeats on itself, with no way of getting out. It is defeated by the combined efforts of both Sakura and Syaoran, who manage to cut the loop in half. When you look at the picture you will see how möebius doesn't come to same place 2nd time.

recycle ur recycle bins
coz
recycle symbol contains
some secrets about the time
that u dunno

seven bridges of könisberg keeps 7 secrets of the universe
1-i is enough to see the whole world and tell it
2-you to make a rotting poem with a synthetic verse
3-love is enough to come on your own kid
4-hate that will never leave your bright curse
5-miss is too much even for a strong pith
6-kill doctors injure hospitals l'ours
7-how sacret your secrets lead us to hell's pit

"A mathematician confided

That a Möbius band is one-sided,

And you'll get quite a laugh,

If you cut one in half,

For it stays in one piece when divided"

This is Echer's famous möebius strip with ants, we all have möebius bands inside ourselves, we call it DNA. One recent application of knot theory has been to the question of whether two strands of DNA are equivalent without cutting. If the knot is moved smoothly to a different position in the ambient space, then the knot is considered to be unchanged, and if one knot can be moved smoothly to coincide with another knot, the two knots are called "equivalent".

how many dimensions has a line?
2 or 3, to tell the imaginary truth, if it is 3, there's possibilty that it can be 4, too.
is it a plane without width
or is it a bar to thrust into someone's chest.
a girl that you dislike

actually everything comes from circles
and square is a circle with corners
corners are where deja-vu happens
but it can not be true

there is no way of 2nd anything
but 3rd is possible
so you were not that famous king
so you were not blah blah blah in your previous life
but you were a fairy before that
and i loved you

god's number is 3
that's why blinds can see
but my lucky number is 13
because i am still a suicide teen
and god is one
but i am 13 different words
undone

mathematik is so dutch, i guess.
because 2 lines are said to be skew lines if they do not intersect but are not parallel.
skew lines
need to 3 dimensions to screw
because they can not fuck each other like animals, beastial and underrate-parallel
they need the 3rd perspective of something for a original orgy in the ambient space

somebody's baby boy ain't coming home tonight

2006-07-13T19:07:00.000+03:00

i want to come home

paint

play

and smoke religion

start again

i start again

FREAK OUT-SCHMEAK OUT

''Turn Up, Shell Out,

Get Lost''

Keef Reef and the

Curious Smokes

Willi Warmer's Giant

Bingo

The Boring Mothers.

BELLE E. BUTONS

Sporran Jugglers. Underground

trains. Spot Prizes. Licensed

Fish Bar (down the road). Moon-

Light. Constant running water

London Airport Runaway Seven

WOT A CARVE-UP !!!!

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jenny jenny where's my rusty bike?
jenny jenny vanilla or chocolate,
jenny jenny how do you like?
jenny jenny give me that doll
that's my ball
that's my boy
that's my the biggest party ever
crybabyboycrybabyboy
make your home a river
hey, you can't play with fish as a toy

jenny jenny never call me syd again

stop please

i'm crying

i lost my father

manic-depression is an infinite adolescence

and without syd it will never end

i should do something

but it's ok

'cause god is invisible

and

2nd death comes like a friend

offhand about things

here i go

μίσος

2006-07-05T04:58:00.000+03:00

Agoraphobia
Asperger's syndrome
Autistic spectrum disorder (ASD)
Avoidant personality disorder
Depression
Dysthymia
Isolation
Shyness
Social anxiety disorder
Selective mutism
so white when i hate
sorry peace,
you are late
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